Well I gave up and took my medicine last night, I feel much much better so obviously I do need it.
Going through severe withdrawals now, almost 24hrs off medication. Headache dizziness, electric brain pulses, out of body experiences. Why did I ever take this poison.
So apparently I’ve had something traumatic happen to me in the last three years that I can’t remember. Anxiety has since than died down, but now I deal with debilitating heart palpitations or as most call them “flutters”. No they can’t kill you, it’s the fact that you have to deal with them and the annoyance that they bring. Day to day activities like work, cleaning, even relaxing have become hard to do without my chest feeling like its getting punched in. It’s been almost three days and still I have a palpitation at least 3x a minute. I’ve learned to control my breathing, focus on other things, even cut certain things out of my life, and still no relief. Maybe one day things will get better, but as of right now I’m in a hole too deep.
Ah yes love, something i cant quite grasp. Somehow I feel like I’m just going to lay in this bed by myself forever, with no one to hold. Love is complicated and very hard to find, I wish I could understand it but I cant. The point where you just want to cuddle with anyone is when you’ve reached an all time low, I can’t stand the fact that I’m alone. I don’t know what to do anymore, do I keep looking for love, or do I just give up? Trust me that thought runs through my mind on a daily basis. I wonder if anyone else feels the same way I do… alone and longing for something real, and if there is someone out there for me I pray I meet them soon.
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So as an enployee of walmart I can honestly say its probably the most ridiculous place you could possibly work. I work 40hrs a week yet they still classify me as part time so I can’t get benifits. If you get overtime they make you take a longer lunch so you don’t get your overtime pay. I work back in tire and lube and you think id be making a good ammount of money, think again. I get paid bullshit, lets just say its wayyy below $10. Needless to say coming from an inside walmart employee, walmart is a money hungry greedy corprate whackjob of a company, and frankly they don’t give two shits who you are, as long as you worship them like a god they’re happy. Fuck this place and what it stands for, as much as I would like to quit, I need thoa job.
What’s your input? Id like to know.
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So I’ve decided to finally have a good idea. I’m gonna start bogging on a title called, daily mentions from an old ass phone. My hero is now a prehistoric android, and I figured it would be a good idea yo blog throughout my day here in cincinnati ohio. Sounds like a good ass idea to me, Stay tuned.
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The time of year is coming, when all the trees change into their orange and reds and yellows, tis my favorite time of year. Ghost hunting and exploring historic places and collecting leaves, ahh autumn you are my lover…. oh Anne HOODIES!!!!!